Windows 10? It’ll Keep Waiting.

Several weeks ago, I reserved a free upgrade for Windows 10. I figured since it’s the most recent version, I should have it. However, shortly after I received my copy, I started having second thoughts.

First off, the only reason I have Windows 8 is due to buying a new computer. I honestly prefer Windows 7. Windows 8’s format belongs on a tablet, not a computer. Second, I read about people having several problems with Windows 10. Such as:

  • Losing everything on their PC, even after selecting the option to keep it (yes, I know you’re warned to back up your stuff, but if they include an option to let you keep your stuff and that doesn’t even work, it sounds like Windows 10 is busted)
  • Their computer becoming very sluggish or freezing completely.
  • Certain games no longer working due to incompatibility with Windows 10, even after it was stated those games would continue working

It might be a short list of problems, but they’re pretty severe ones. So far, the only reasons I’ve read for updating to Windows 10 refer to visual appeal and as nice that is, it’s not worth those problems above. Even if I do back up my stuff, I’d be extremely angry if the upgrade wiped out everything. If I wanted to wipe out all of my data, I’d do a factory reset on my computer.

I think the only way I’ll get Windows 10 is the same way I got Windows 8 – if I buy a new computer. Since this computer is working well, that’ll be a long time away, if it ever happens. Until then, my copy is going to keep waiting…and waiting…and waiting.

Things I Will Never Do

In eight months, I will be 21 years old. I can hardly believe it. I still remember being five years old and thinking of how long it would take me to get up here. It did take longer, but I miss being smaller. At least then, I could be picked up and carried. The only reason I hate being carried is I’m too big.

Regardless of how old I get, however, there are some things I have sworn to never do in my life, no matter how bad it gets or how I bored I get. Note that I have no general negative opinion of people who choose to do and enjoy these things. I’m simply choosing not to.

  • Drugs. That means alcohol, marijuana, tobacco, and whatever else falls under that list that won’t be used for a medical reason. I’ve had enough alcohol and cigarettes in my life. Heck, I live with a smoker! When I finally have my own place, no smoking will be permitted at all. Absolutely zero!
  • Clubbing/Wild parties. I’d rather give myself a concussion than ever do either of these. I hate loud noise, I hate crowds, I hate flashiness, and I hate dancing. Plus, these events are notorious for having people who spike your drink. Any place where I have to worry about someone drugging me is out of the question. No exceptions.
  • Casual sex. This is if I ever have sex at all. But even if I were not an ace, I’d never have a sexual casual relationship, regardless of how much I trusted that person. Sex is not something I ever want to think of the way I think about what I’m having for dinner.
  • Anything I know is dangerous. I don’t care if you only live once. I’m not going to do something I know is guaranteed to get me killed if I go ahead with it. That means things like skydiving and such. I know safety is taken into consideration with stunts like that, but frankly, I’m not willing to risk my life for a thrill.
  • Try to keep up with the latest fads. While I like my electronics and whatnot, the truth is I couldn’t care less about keeping up with the newest device. If I genuinely wanted a new one, I might go for the latest, but if the one I currently have is working absolutely fine, I’m not going to run out and grab another just because it’s newer.
  • Buy new things just for the sake of having new stuff. This applies to clothing. While I will buy something here and there, I will never toss out my whole wardrobe and buy a new one because it’s old or out of style. Really, I’ve never cared for fashion trends. If the clothes still fit and aren’t torn, there’s no reason to throw them out.
  • Fight. I have been a pacifist since I was in my early teens. The only fighting I like is play-fighting, and even that, I tire of quickly.
  • Own a weapon. In regards to violence, the only thing I hate more than fighting are weapons. Particularly guns, but not only them. They’re also not going to be allowed in my house when I’m on my own (not that my relatives I live with have any). I don’t care how properly handled they are. If it’s something typically used for killing, get it away from me!

Mundane Monday: Thanks, Android!

I’ve expressed my gratitude for technology before, but today, I want to talk about how I appreciative I am for a particular piece: my smartphone.

I have an Android smartphone, so instead of the App Store, I have Google Play. Since it’s small (but not too small) and portable, it’s very convenient. I don’t have to turn on my laptop to only look up a bit of information or check a forum. If I’m tired, but not yet ready to go to sleep or I can’t fall asleep, I can easily browse the web until I do and put the phone aside when I finally feel myself drifting off.

Of course, there’s all the apps. Google Play does have a very good selection. My favorite app game to date is Star Girl and I was so happy when I saw they had it. In fact, they have every app I used when I had my school’s iPad. Twitter, Gmail, YouTube, Chase, and diary apps, my fave! Gotta love the diaries!

Having a smartphone also lets me keep personal info like PIN numbers on hand in case I forget. I’ve never forgotten a PIN, but you never know. I keep a lot of little tidbits of information, like addresses and plans. And since I can lock my phone, I know no one else can get in. I never leave it alone to begin with, but locking it just makes me feel better.

Materialism?

Going by dictionary definition, being materialistic means:

  1. excessively concerned with material possessions; money-oriented.

I don’t think that sounds like me. However, sometimes, I do feel materialistic. When I have days where I feel like my mind is a battlefield, I try to keep myself going by remembering things I have to look forward to, but the first thing that pops into my mind are material things. Even my list of little things to live for consists mostly of material things, and nearly half of the things on my bucket list require money as well.

Right now, what I’m looking forward to is getting an iPad Air in April. If things go well, it should happen. It’s not all I have going for me, but it’s all I can think of when worse becomes worst and I’m ready to punt myself out a window. An iPad is something I’ve wanted since my second high school began giving them to students in 2012. I have to admit it’s sort of a revenge thing. Well, not revenge, but my school gave out the iPad 2 with restrictions placed that made the darn thing worthless for out of school entertainment (good grades equaled the privilege to take them home). If I got an iPad Air, not only would I have the better device, but it’d be mine and mine alone. Sort like childish teasing. “Nyah, nyah! My iPad’s better than yours and you can’t have it!” Heh. Just thinking about that makes me laugh a bit.

Of course, if I don’t get it, I’m not going to end it all, but I will be disappointed. Not because I won’t be able to laugh at my old school, but because it is something I genuinely want for myself. Basically, it feels like something I’ve earned just for making it to that point.

I’m not sure if that’s good or bad. On one hand, as I said, it is something that keeps me going and I am buying it myself. On the other hand, I don’t like that I seem to be kept going only by material things. Then again, I guess the same could be said about living for anything or anyone besides one’s self. I know it’s a common thing for parents to say they can’t live without their children. While the loss of a child is a pain I’ll never know (and do not want to), I still don’t like the idea of being ready to kill my own self over someone else, regardless of my relation to that person.

But a materialistic person doesn’t necessarily live for possessions, correct? They will do nearly, if not absolutely, anything to get money or material, but they don’t live for it. A materialistic person would do whatever possible to get back something that was lost than settle for disappointment and move on, I’d think. Or maybe that is also living for materials. Hmm. Maybe I’m over-thinking again.

In any case, I think I’m on a good level. As long as I am aware and try to watch myself, I don’t think I need to worry.

I’m thankful for…

I really don’t have much care for this holiday. I’ve never liked Thanksgiving, not even as a kid. I was much more excited for Christmas. Still, there are things in my life I’m thankful for:

  • My family, despite the amount of times they’ve driven me insane
  • My friends, those close in distance and far away
  • My clinician; she is absolutely amazing!
  • Technology – internet, television, computer, video games, cell phones; all make my life very interesting and fun
  • Art of all kinds; art makes the world visually beautiful
  • Attending college; in spite of how bad it’s gone for me, I have gotten some good things out of it, emotional and material
  • Physical health – I know how fast illness can take over and kill, so I’m very thankful that the extent of my physical ailments is anemia