Around this time last year, I was developing feelings for my friend in the UK. I was sad because I knew there was no chance of us ever being to together and that’s what ultimately led to the feelings fading. But now, I’m really glad I don’t feel that way towards her anymore and that I never told her.
If I’d chosen to tell her, my heart would’ve been crushed, despite knowing ahead of time she didn’t feel that way. Things would be awkward from then on. And if we had been able to get together and be a couple, what if it didn’t work out? We’d likely never speak again.
It’s better to remain friends. I realize friendships often don’t last a lifetime, but as friends, I have a better chance of talking to her for a long time, if not for life. The feelings have faded, so there is absolutely no point in telling her they ever existed. And truthfully, what’s in my head is a fantasy. A relationship with her would not be how I was picturing it. I’m not saying it’d be bad. I don’t think it would be at all. But reality would clash with my fantasy in a head-on collision.
Having her in my life as my friend is the best I could ask for.