Subconscious Rage

It’s amazing how long anger can last, whether or not you’re trying to hold it. In my case, I’m not, but it’s still there.

It’s been two years since the self-righteous liar who blamed me for a post I never wrote and never apologized. It’s been three years since several nasty run-ins with simmers who find anything less than extreme hype and overbearing love for absolutely everything of the series’ latest iteration unacceptable. It’s been four years since the obnoxious Pokemon fans who sent me hate messages because I cancelled my then pre-order for the games were being released at that time. And I can’t remember how long it’s been since I left the Sims forum and Sims reddit sub-section that showed blatant favoritism toward simmers with the “right” opinions versus simmers with the “wrong” ones (in particular with Reddit, I was banned after a user with the “right” views verbally attacked me and I eventually got fed up and lashed out; naturally, he got no consequence). Nor can I remember how long it’s been since I was banned from a Sims Facebook group that promised they were different, yet turned out to be the same as the plethora of Sims community with that style of administration. Maybe a year, maybe a bit less or more, but I really can’t remember.

Yet, I’m still angry at all of these people.

I’m not trying to be, I’m not purposefully holding a grudge, but when I think of any of these things, the above incidents are the first that come to my mind and all the anger resurfaces. Pokemon is unaffected because I’ve always been slow at completing the games (though I do not pre-order anymore; I’ve still yet to make sense of being angry at someone else’s way of spending their own money), but the others very much soured my outlook on the media and the fandom. I do not watch Winx Club, I no longer use the blog I made for the show, and I no longer speak to the friends I had in the fandom (one still follows me, but our contact is limited to occasional likes of each other’s posts). Any and all love I had for the Sims series as a whole has withered away and my “simblr”, despite I gave it an overhaul, remains unused while its Facebook page gets very light usage. I remember being excited I could finally follow a game from its beginning. I very much regret that excitement. And yes, I still buy the packs. Go figure.

I consider this akin to feeling embarrassed about things I did when I was young as five, too young to have the comprehension I do now. I’ve had all about “leaving the past behind”, but the problem is the past cannot be forgotten, short of inducing amnesia. There’s a saying about words: “Once said, they can only be forgiven, not forgotten.” That applies here. If I’m being honest, I haven’t forgiven these people. Moved past it and am not ranting anymore, yes, but I still consider these people to be awful humans who I couldn’t think or wish well of, even if I were the purest being alive. Maybe that is why this anger still rests in my subconscious and comes bubbling back to the surface when I consider rejoining these things. And yes, I am well that fandom is not needed to enjoy a certain media. Unfortunately, once you know the fandom, you forever connect it, subconsciously or otherwise, and that mental connection is not easily severed. Plus, having people, even faceless strangers, to share with is much like an addiction. It’s similar to how I feel about my relationship with my boyfriend. I was happy when I was single, but now that I know how wonderful a relationship can be and that I have him, I’d be hugely depressed if we broke up and I was single again. Years later, I might still feel the heartbreak because I can’t forget how much I enjoyed the time I had with him and loved him.

The curse of human memory and the price one pays for experiencing life, I suppose.

Second Time’s The Charm…

I once talked about a person who criticized me on my main Tumblr blog for not being impressed with The Sims 4. Well, someone else (or it may be the same person) has appeared who also has an issue with my distaste for TS4. This person was upset because I was unhappy about the exclusion of a particular feature I loved in TS3. Like the first time, this person is anonymous.

We survived without CASt in TS2, and TS2 is a far superior game to TS3 on many counts. The fact that they’re not including CASt in the Sims 4 just means they’re going to be focusing more on gameplay

My, my. People certainly get upset when you have a different opinion from them, don’t they? Since this person chose to be condescending towards me, I had a little fun and intentionally wrote an unnecessarily long response. I doubt they will read it, but it was fun to write.

“…TS2 is a far superior game to TS3 on many counts.”

In your opinion. Not in mine. To me, TS3 is the very best of the series (so far). I loved TS2 and stuck with it for about a year after TS3 came out. Once I was finally able to play TS3, TS2 went to my sister. And once I gave her my TS3 base game, even she was bored with TS2.

CASt allows me to bring out my imagination in many ways that weren’t possible in TS2. I love creating as much as I love playing and if the ability to create is going to be more limited, I’d rather stick with TS3.

If you lack or have less imagination (yes, that was a shot because you took one at me), that’s fine by me, but I personally love how TS3 allows me to make my imagination burst. Not a darn thing in my game is the same as it once was unless I couldn’t edit it or haven’t gotten around to it.

If I can’t create anything and practically spill my imagination and creativity into the game, there is no point in me playing it. It’s the same reason I love Pokémon X and Pokémon Y more than any of its predecessors. Once I learned they allowed us to customize our characters, I was sold. The storyline could’ve sucked for all I care. I still would’ve bought the games just to be able buy clothes and accessories for my protagonists.

Everyone plays games differently. That’s why some people love puzzle games, some love action, some love RPGs, and so and so forth. Some people care about gameplay and nothing more. Others are creators who’d rather spend three hours making a household than playing. Some are builders who’d prefer to spend time creating or renovating houses or even making their own world. It’s all okay. There’s no one right way to play a game.

You’re free to hate TS3 with a passion that surpasses the sun’s heat, but it’s not okay to look down on someone because they have a different preference than you. At the end of the day, it’s nothing more than a game. An invention for people’s entertainment and amusement. No one has to buy a game they dislike and there are no exceptions to that. I’m allowed to be upset about the exclusion of CASt just as you’re allowed to disagree with me and consider CASt an unimportant feature. I consider CASt to be an essential feature of the game, but EA cannot please everybody. Some people are going to be unhappy or displeased. There’s no way to avoid that. And their feelings are not wrong.

Stick with whatever game makes you happy. Clearly for you, that’s TS2. For me, it’s TS3. It’s a free country. Play whatever you want. Just don’t hate on someone for liking something you do not. I don’t look down on those who prefer TS2 to TS3. I’d prefer to be treated with the same respect. I ranted about the game, not the players. Why? Because I understand that they are different from me and thus, have different tastes and preferences than I do. I don’t expect anyone to like what I like or dislike what I like, nor do I expect anyone to bend over backwards for me and my tastes. That’s just plain silly and ridiculously arrogant.

This is the second time I have been criticized for not being enthusiastic about TS4. I really wish these wars would stop. In the end, anyone who likes The Sims series and has played a version of the game is a fan. This “I’m a better fan than you” nonsense is what I expect of children in middle school or lower, not adults who have bigger problems, worries, and concerns than someone not liking the same game they like. If you cannot accept someone else’s preferences because they vary from yours, I suggest you associate solely with like-minded people and stray away from any place where someone may dare to have a different opinion. However, since this is the internet, where there are literally millions of varying opinions in millions of places, I wish you luck with that. Even people who see eye-to-eye may not agree 100%.

Also, I happen to have TS4 pre-ordered at a local GameStop and I am buying the premium edition. As ironic as it sounds, I have no intention of cancelling that pre-order and I do intend to fully pay it off. Will I still stick with TS3? Ultimately, yes. But that doesn’t mean I’m unwilling to give TS4 a try. I give all Sims games a try. And if I don’t like TS4 and end up with no desire to keep it, I’ll hand it off to my sister or a friend of mine who also likes the series. TS4 could end up being my secondary favorite. I might keep both TS4 and TS3 installed on my computer. It’s not a guarantee, but it’s a possibility.

Even if I weren’t wiling to give TS4 a try, I wouldn’t be inferior to any other fan because of that. Regardless of how much or how little money I spend on any game, I’m no less of a fan than you or any other player. It’s a game! Your life doesn’t depend on it, nor does mine or anyone else’s. And, while I realize all fandoms have some “bad seeds”, if the Sims community is nothing more than an endless war of who’s better than who, I’d rather not be a part of it.

I hope I this will be the last hate message I receive because this is very ludicrous and I sincerely believe The Sims series is being taken a bit too seriously by some. Or many, rather.

A Hater Appears

Not here, but on my main Tumblr blog, Spontaneity.

Last night, I posted that I didn’t like the upcoming Sims 4 and preferred to stick with The Sims 3.

I just watched the gameplay trailer of The Sims 4.

I don’t like it. It looks too cartoonish. I prefer the realistic-looking sims of TS3. The only difference I see between the two is that there are more options/features with the mouse. Basically, it looks like a cross between TS2 and TS3 with added features.

I’ll stick to TS3. I don’t even have Island Paradise yet.

As you can see, my opinion does criticize, but only the game. It does not criticize any person who likes TS4. Just the game itself. However, someone took offense and I woke up to this message in my Tumblr inbox:

“I prefer the realistic-looking sims of TS3” … Have you never played the game without CC? They look horrid. Why do people forget that they’ve clogged their games with CC? No Sims start out looking good – actually, no, I think the Sims 4 sims look pretty good! More realistic than what TS3 started with, that’s for sure. (Also, could you not further tag your TS4 dislike? It’s not like you made a legit good point and a lot of people in the tag don’t like it. Go bond with ’em.)

Rather than simply express disagreement, this user goes out of his or her way to insult me. They assume my game is full of custom content (CC), they assume because their sims look bad, mine do, and they tell me not to use a certain tag because others don’t like what I post. Apparently, this person is ignorant of the fact that the only people in charge of the staff are the Tumblr staff. Tags are not just for positive opinions.

Here’s my response:

Oh, for the love of fairies and cupcakes! We’ve got an opinion cop here, people!

Let’s get something straight here right now. My account, my blog. I will post whatever I freaking want and use whatever tags I like. If I make a post about marshmallows and want to tag it “ice cream”, I can. I wouldn’t because that’s illogical, but the point’s clear. If the people who patrol the TS4 tag don’t like it, I don’t care. Actually, now because of this message, I don’t even care that they exist.

Your sims may look horrid, but that’s your problem, not mine. My sims are as adorable as I want them to be. Granted, most of them are female because I love creating girls, but that’s just because I am one.

As for CC, I do not have any that affect my sims. At least, I don’t think I do. I have some clothes from the store, but I don’t see how that would affect my sims’ skin and face. Same with the items, which I have most of. However, I gave my sister the base game to play last night. She spent most of the time creating sims. No CC whatsoever, and hers looked great. She sure liked them.

As someone told me, the trailer may not be what’s released on the actual disc, so I’m trying to remain open-minded. It doesn’t matter if my point wasn’t legitimate because I wasn’t trying to make a point at all! I was stating an opinion. I don’t like the game from what it looks like.

Also, my game is not clogged with CC, but how nice of you to assume you know what’s on my computer. Silly me! I thought I was the only one who used it and played TS3 on it. Oh, right. I am. You’re not smart. I have a lot less CC than most players. I actually think the CC that affects sims’ faces is rather bad and only makes them good for photo shoots than actual gameplay.

Like I said, my problem with the sims of TS4 is that they’re too cartoonish-looking. I like cartoons, but not in video games unless the game in question is based off a cartoon, which TS4 is not. You’ve got your opinion and I’ve got mine. Now, kindly take your problems with mine and shove them down your pants!

Oh, and to answer your first question, yes, I’ve played the game without CC. I didn’t use the store for a long time at first. But again, I don’t think any of the CC I have affects my sims’ skin and face, so I don’t see how it’s relevant.

Now, get off my blog and stay off! Your different opinion is welcome, but your rudeness is not. Get out and do not come back!

Since this user, who was unsurprisingly anonymous, decided to be rude, I chose to be rude right back. I have no problem with people who disagree with me. After all, different people have different opinions. It’s a fact of life. But there’s a way to disagree and criticize without rudeness. Perhaps someone should teach this user that lesson.

This Is Not A Hotel!

I checked my archives and the last time my mother and sister slept over here was March 29th – two weeks ago.

I am getting tired of this! This is not a freakin’ hotel! They stay here because Mom doesn’t like walking in their neighborhood at night and she finished my hair too late. And whose fault is it that they live in a bad area in the first place?

And, of course, they don’t think it’s a big deal. They’re not the ones having their apartment used as a darn hotel! The year is not even half-over and already, they’ve spent the night more than twice. I still haven’t forgotten the two weeks during my winter break and the month of January. My uncle might not even come back tonight because they’re here and I don’t blame him. It is too cramped!

Not to mention my sister has been hogging my uncle’s netbook since they came here and we only have one plug, so I don’t want to use my laptop.

This night cannot go quick enough! They have no consideration for my needs and space. The reason they move so much is they can’t get along with neighbors. Gee, I wonder why? You can’t cramp three people into a small room and expect no complaining. You just can’t.

This is the last time they’re staying here because this is getting ridiculous. You’d think twenty-two years and two kids later, my mom would figure out how to plan ahead and learn from her mistakes. Obviously not.

Sheesh. Why Take Offense?

I swear some people just live to be offended by others.

There is a facebook page I liked called “Not Being Pregnant“.  As the name implies, it’s about enjoying that you’re not pregnant. Not necessarily that you don’t have children, just that you are not pregnant.

Unsurprisingly, a few mothers (why is it always moms?) took offense. They saw it as an attack on their roles of being mothers. Why and how, I do not know. One of the accusations made is that the “likers” of the page bash young mothers.

I looked through the page and did not find any bashing. What I did find was some users saying becoming pregnant and having a baby while still in high school is not smart, which I agree with. Most likely, if you’re still in high school, your parents are still taking care of you and I don’t think someone who’s still a dependent his or herself should be creating MORE dependents. Yet, it seems to these mothers who have taken offense to this page see that opinion as an attack on them.

I’ll continue to view that page. However, if someone does bash young mothers, I will disagree because I don’t believe in attacking parents.