I’m thankful for…

I really don’t have much care for this holiday. I’ve never liked Thanksgiving, not even as a kid. I was much more excited for Christmas. Still, there are things in my life I’m thankful for:

  • My family, despite the amount of times they’ve driven me insane
  • My friends, those close in distance and far away
  • My clinician; she is absolutely amazing!
  • Technology – internet, television, computer, video games, cell phones; all make my life very interesting and fun
  • Art of all kinds; art makes the world visually beautiful
  • Attending college; in spite of how bad it’s gone for me, I have gotten some good things out of it, emotional and material
  • Physical health – I know how fast illness can take over and kill, so I’m very thankful that the extent of my physical ailments is anemia

Bad Joke

Today, the weather was  freezing cold! My whole face is frozen! I will never unnecessarily go out in the cold again!

However, somehow, I managed to come up with a very lame joke about it. I doubt it’s even original.

It’s under thirty degrees and a cop is pursuing a crook on foot. What does he say when he finally catches up to him? “FREEZE!”

Music Sounds Better…

I never go anywhere without my smartphone and earphones. I listen to music almost all the time when I’m outside of my house. I have music playing in my ears right now as I’m typing this! Some people might call that addiction, but I call it blockage.

I’m still mystified by the effect music can have on me. I have over a hundred songs and I have plenty for different moods. Most of them are pop, but a good number are also classical. The pop songs can bump my mood up when I’m down and the classical ones can relax or soothe me. Still, it’s the lyrics that matter most. If I’m having a hard time, for example, I listen to The Climb by Miley Cyrus or Only A Girl from my favorite show, Winx Club. If I just need something to boost my mind, I listen to something like Party In The USA by Miley or Dancing Crazy by Miranda Cosgrove. If there’s a music video for any of the songs, I somehow put myself into them in my head.

I’m just so amazed by how music blocks the world out and almost makes me feel like I’m in another entirely different world. It may not fix my problems, but it sure makes me want to wake up and get out of bed. Sometimes, I mentally change the lyrics to fit the image in my head.

I don’t keep my earphones in for too long, of course, but I really don’t think I could live without music. Well, I guess I could, but it’d be much harder. Sometimes, I even think of music as a drug for the effect it has, as if it has an actually psychological effect on my brain. And the lyrics really can have a good meaning for life. Like in Raining Sunshine by Miranda Cosgrove, one of the lines is “Don’t be scared of what you fear.”

Along with my friends, I think music is the best thing in my life. 😀

By the way, the title of this post is play on the title of a song I like. You could never guess which one.

TS3: From Best to Worst

Although I don’t mention it much, I love The Sims 3. It is my absolute favorite PC game. I like some other versions, but the PC version is the very best in my opinion. Probably because the original Sims series was made for PC to begin with.

While I didn’t pay full price for every expansion and stuff pack, the entire series has probably cost me at least $500, more if I count the content I’ve purchased from the online store. Altogether, there are twenty packs and I don’t regret any of them. Money may not grow on trees, but if I enjoy what I’ve bought, then I say it’s money well-spent, even if it won’t help me in the long-term. You can have hard times ahead and still be happy for the past. At least, I think so.

While I’m glad my game is full, I don’t use every single feature of every expansion. I’d even say I’m bored of some, although I’d refrain from calling them useless because they are not. Let me tell you what I think of each expansion. I’m going to go from my most favorite to my least. Remember, these are my opinions, so I’m speaking of personal preferences, not all players in general. Everyone’s different, so I can’t speak for everyone. Why am I doing this? One, I’m bored. Two, I get enjoyment out of making lists. Yeah, I know, Strange hobby. Read the rest of this entry »

I Give Up

I can’t do it anymore. I give up.

Despite that I am a pessimist, I do occasionally try to see the bright side of life because I know there are good things in the world. But two nights ago, I found this post on Tumblr. For those who don’t want to look, that post is about rape. I have reblogged posts about rape before on Tumblr, but that one is the most horrible, disgusting piece I’ve ever come across.

That was the last straw. That was it. I lost the last amount of faith I had in the human race. I am done with humanity. I may like some people, but I hate the human race as a whole. And I’m not alone in that. My British friend, who has more optimism than me, agreed when I told her.

Even a post that later appeared on my dashboard that showed good things happening around the world couldn’t cheer me up. I can’t believe in humanity anymore. I’m done.