Ear Piercing

Just a tiny thing I’m appreciative for. My ears are pierced and the holes have never closed. My mother had them pierced when I was at baby. Seven months old to be exact, and I’m very glad she did. I love earrings, but I’ve heard piercing is not only painful, but is done with a needle, an object that fills me with terror. If I didn’t have my ears pierced, I’d likely never have it done because I don’t like pain. I know there are clip-on earrings, but they are hard to find. The one and only pair I ever had were purchased from a thrift store and they hurt to wear because they were tight.

So thank you, Mom, for piercing my ears at an age that I would be too young to remember having it done.

Social Awkwardness

While I like being shy and considering myself a wallflower, my wish for this Wednesday is that I wasn’t so socially awkward.

Sweet and Shy

I don’t know if being socially awkward and being shy are necessarily the same, but I think the latter merely makes me a little afraid of meeting people while the former makes it hard for me to talk to them. I cannot flirt, I cannot pick up on social cues, and I tend to embarrass myself. Merely asking a friend or other person to meet up somewhere comes out awkwardly!

Maybe my desire to remain indoors or alone is the cause of this. Maybe I just have a low social need that’s easily fulfilled with online conversations. Then again, maybe social awkwardness and shyness are related and the only way to get rid of the former would be to get rid of the latter. But I like being a shy person because it feels easier to be alone, so perhaps I will just have to put up with being socially awkward.

Cute Lil’ Kitten

I’m about to leave for my evening classes, but before I do, I had to share this adorable picture of a kitten that showed up on my Tumblr dashboard.

Cute Lil' Kitten


The Eds

While Winx Club is my most favorite cartoon right now, my favorite show of all time would probably have to be Ed, Edd, n Eddy.

This show never failed to make laugh until my sides hurt. Edd was my favorite, but every kid in the show was hilarious. I prefer the early episodes that took place in the neighborhood of their cul-de-sac to the later ones  that take place in their school, but I love just about every episode. With the exception of Eddy’s brother, who was a one-shot for the movie, I like every character too. To me, this show had a perfect run. 1999 – 2009 and ended spectacularly.

Independence of Assistance

I don’t believe I’ve ever mentioned on here, but my immediate family survives on government assistance. It’s been this way since I was an infant, although my mother relies on it more now than she did when I was small. While I’m grateful to have it because we couldn’t eat otherwise, I don’t like it.

Now, I admit I am someone who does not like asking for help, whether or not I need it. In fact, the more I do need it, the less likely I am to ask for help because I prefer to figure things out for myself. The reason I dislike relying on others is they can let you down anytime, and I’ve seen this with the PA my mom uses. Multiple times, I’ve seen her fight against getting her benefits reduced or cut.

I think seeing that is very reason why I hate having to rely so heavily on anyone or anything. The idea that being let down could cause someone to lose their source of food or their home is horrifically terrifying to me. That fear is probably why I’m vehemently against ever being on any kind of PA when I am supporting myself unless it is literally the only option I have left.

So my wish for today is that my family didn’t have to rely on assistance to get by and my mom was able to fully support all of our financial uses herself.